My portfolio website is back online, and I’m excited to add new work from my current role as a web, graphic, and social media/content creator for Seedway.
It took me almost 20 hours to develop the concept for this portfolio, and I truly believe it played a significant role in helping me land this job. Thanks to the portfolio, I was able to secure interviews for positions ranging from $60,000 to $90,000 in Upstate NY.
I think the secret is to believe in yourself, no matter how difficult or painful the process may be.
I’ve been dealing with a lot of internal turmoil lately, which has made me feel really sad. However, I do have a few stabilizing forces. One is coaching and training in martial arts, another is the pursuit of art and design, and the third is entrepreneurship.
The only thing missing now is a creative partner or muse. I thought I had found that person.
This struggle has revealed certain patterns in how I navigate the world. While I’m secure in many areas of my life, I still struggle with codependency in others. I think this stems, in part, from not receiving the love and encouragement I needed when I was younger. Last week, I watched a YouTube video pointing out that most mentors and gurus encourage men to be “high-value,” but very rarely are we taught self-worth. We often overextend ourselves without receiving the love and security we long for.
It makes me sad that I didn’t realize this sooner. But now, at least, I understand how I navigate the world and the areas where I fall short. It’s been a very painful lesson.
Still, maybe what I have isn’t entirely a bad thing. It makes me more authentic in how I pursue my passions.
